the Sound of Settling.

i'm sure you're reading this.

for once, i hope that you are.

i'm writing this one for you//.

at what point in time, do we get so lonely

that we settle for anything close to us,

as opposed to something that's good for us?

let's not even go that far.

why do we settle on "the next best thing"?

maybe it's because we're lonely.

we become so accustomed to someone being there.

not someone special, just someone. 

loneliness is a sickness.

sometimes anything is better than nothing.

we don't wanna sleep in that big empty bed.

we don't wanna walk into the party by ourselves.

so we compromise for the sake of companionship.

we forgo authentic love &

we embrace the easy way out.

the quick answer, as opposed to the right answer.

why are we so afraid to be alone?

and believe me, i understand the concept 

of wanting someone else there.

someone to give you hope that things will get better.

someone to help drive you on the way to whatever

it is that this place has in store for us in the future.

but i want that person to actually make me feel that way

i want someone who makes me think...

"i will do whatever it takes to make you happy''

"i can do anything as long as you're here with me"

what i don't want is a plug-in girlfriend...

that's not how i meant that to come out.

(i honestly don't think i could afford the electric bill.)

i guess what i mean is that i don't want to have a stagnant

assembly line of girls who fill that role for me.

that's what high school was for.

i want to be floored.

i want the next girl i end up with to knock me off my feet.

and not with a Johnny Cage Sweep Kick, either.

of course that's kinda hott in a weird way.

i hope that i'm not lonely forever.

i know that i won't be, but it makes me terrified sometimes.

but is fear enough of a reason to settle on just anything?

let's just keep everything in perspective.

& try not to shit ourselves.

TOASTY!